i may have shared the wrong things with the wrong person, trusted the wrong person with all my heart, believed the wrong person like a religion, and said many, many, many things i shouldnt have to a person.

it still hurts me alot, to know that what i cherish and deem to be one of the most important things in my life, is all a lie.

but then again, i may have been manipulated to have these thoughts.

but then again, i may be in denial to think that i was being influenced.

as much as i want to believe in the former, its undeniable that the truth hurts.

i can never take back the words i've said, but i have faith in the modicum of trust i have left with to know that those words will never be used against me.

if they are...its going to be bitter, it'll make my life hard, it'll be painful for me, it may even affect my future but i'll be willing to swallow the pain, grow from it, and be forgiving just because i love you that much.

today will be the last i let this bother me.

just...let it go