its just that sometimes in this whole thing we're in, you're right to be paranoid or do all the overthinking, and when i am just like that, im committing a sin - being difficult n unreasonable.

talk about tolerance level.

n how im beyond stoked or shld i say surprised at every little small thing you do, from staying on the phone for a 15mins convo, calling me before u sleep once in awhile, texting me when ure at work,not getting angry when im angry(our mirror neurons are so strong),reading my blog&tweets&fb bcos u want to know whats happening in my life & nt bcos u wanna see any updates of our fights, keeping your promises.

these things, the norms n foundation of being in a relationship. i treasure them like anything. i hold on to them so tight like theyre so precious because i know/expect them not to come by often.

i dont even know if thats a good or a bad thing

i just learn how to appreciate you so so so much more but deep inside im always having my army build up a wall of numbness to prepare for a disappointment